Nice vids. Here is my take on what you are experiencing. There is a thing called buyers remorse, or builders remorse in your case. I and most people experience this after they spend money on something that is not an absolutes necessity. In your case you spent 800 dollars on a computer when you want a truck and quad. It's apparent that you like gaming and making vids. Just continue to save and make a priority list. I have almost 15,000 dollars in 4 wheelers in my garage and my basement isn't finished. I think about that all the time. It's natural to feel that way. Your young and seem like you have a very good head on your shoulders. So here is my advice. Look for a job that will pay more and give you more hours. Make a priority list of things that you want/need. Things will fall into place before you know it.