It is hard to believe that in 9 hrs and 40 minutes (10:34) it will mark a year since Durby was called home by God. I would like to say things are doing very well but I think we are all just going through the motions to exist the best way we know how. My youngest and I have been eating out feelings and my boy still has not really dealt with it. I know he would be upset with how I let myself go health wise, but at the same time i say who am i out to impress? Nobody. I do have to say that in the last month I have started to care about my health and have lost 15 of the 30 pounds I gained this past year.
I have to make him proud of me and to do that i need to be healthy and start trying to plan for the future even though he will not be in it physically. I am hoping to get my credit up enough to buy a house within the year so that we may put down some roots and i am keeping in mind things we looked for in a home we wanted to buy together so that I still feel like he is a part of the decision making.
Thanks for being there for us this past year when others have not been. It is nice to know there are some caring people in this crazy world.
I have to make him proud of me and to do that i need to be healthy and start trying to plan for the future even though he will not be in it physically. I am hoping to get my credit up enough to buy a house within the year so that we may put down some roots and i am keeping in mind things we looked for in a home we wanted to buy together so that I still feel like he is a part of the decision making.
Thanks for being there for us this past year when others have not been. It is nice to know there are some caring people in this crazy world.